My Headache Hallucinations
Poetry, Lil' Kut
May 26, 2010
What’s up with The Beat? It’s ya boy, Jimmy. My head aches right now. I’ve just been traumatized by birds and stingrays in my mind. I got butterflies twirlin’ round and round in my head and it hurts. I wish they’d disperse. It’s like a nightmare. I can’t change it.
It seems like I’m trapped in the Ranch right now. It’s like a dream. I don’t know why—I had these thoughts when I was on the outs—it’s like déjà vu right now. I’m scarred with crazy thoughts of flying pigs and crazy pedestrians trying to attack me from the sky. It feels like I’m running with no shoes on. It’s really weird. It feel like I replaced my old brain for a new one. I’m damaged from head to toe. Got nowhere to go. No water, no food. It feels like I’m trapped in a black hole. Nowhere to hide, nowhere to go. I see flying angels tellin’ me to do good, but there’s another person tellin’ me to do bad. I wish they could just leave me and let me make my own decisions, best for me.
I’m on my own, but I feel like there’s someone right behind me, tellin’ me to keep goin’, tellin’ me to “Keep pushin’ to your destination.”